What If?

I noted something on my FB status a few weeks ago that solicited a thought provoking response. I had indicated that all my paperwork was into Iliff as of 10/28/09 and that it was now all in God's hands. A retired pastor friend of my commented, "what if Iliff and God don't agree?" I thought for a moment - well, what if?

The truth is that this 20 year journey has revealed itself more specifically over the years. I believed that I am in tune with what God is asking of me but then again, I feel like I've been here before and God was just testing me to see if I would be faithful. There's no question that I will be faithful to my calling, and if not ordination, then whatever that may be.

So what if? Well, if I've completely misread the signs and misunderstood His guidance for that many years and the door is closed, I'll keep praying and seeking His direction and faithfully following the path He's laid out for me. I'm okay with that. Perhaps I could be wrong and Iliff denies my application. Door closed. I understand that door-in-face experiences. I can appreciate the devils advocate position and I also understand the increasing challenges that comes with following the call.

Bring it on. Either way there is no doubt God has brought me to this point. Should He say "hey Cheryl, I just wanted to see if you'd do it, now let me really show you what I have planned" then I'm on my way. This is not MY dream to became an ordained minister. I believe it is God's dream for me.

I guess we'll know soon!